Have You Heard?

It's not really a secret at this point. But it was to me! Up until a week ago Sunday, I had no idea anything was going on in my body. But...surprise!

I woke up last Saturday, and I didn't feel too well. I got a little sick before Lorelai and I left the house to run some errands, but I didn't think much of it. Once I got some breakfast in my tummy, I was fine! Sunday morning was a little of the same. While I had my head in the toilet, Jeremy happened to walk by and voice his concern. "Could you be pregnant?" HA! Yeah right! No way! I quickly shot him down, and explained that Misty, the girl that I work with, was dealing the the stomach bug at her house, and I must have caught a bit of it the previous week at school. But Jeremy persisted. For the rest of the morning. And most of the afternoon. So finally, at about 3:00, I headed to Walgreens for a covert shopping trip. There was no point in going to Walmart...everybody and their dog would have seen me on that aisle, and the rumor would have been around town before I even got to pee on the stick!

I didn't really get anxious or nervous until I actually opened the box at home. There was no real reason for me to believe I was pregnant. Sure, I was a few weeks late, but surely it's normal to be irregular after a baby. Nothing about my body felt at all like it did with Lorelai. I had been pretty tired, but I have a pretty taxing job, so I blamed the fatigue on the 4 and 5 year olds that I corral all day. At 5:00 on Sunday afternoon, I finally bit the bullet and took the test. My heart was pounding! But I just knew it shouldn't be, right?! WRONG!

It took less than a minute for that beautiful little word to appear digitally on the screen. (Jeremy wanted me to buy the high dollar ones just to be sure). WHAT?! I fell...literally fell...on the floor of the bathroom. I was in shock. I looked at it again and again. I'm pregnant?! Really?! Excitement, panic, anxiety, joy, and every other emotion you could possibly imagine went pulsing through my veins in the exact same instant. When I gathered myself just a little and finally picked myself up off the floor, I stalked into the living room to find my baby girl. As soon as I saw her, my heart melted and I burst into tears. How could any baby be as good as this baby? How could I ever in my existance find enough love to share with another baby? I'm still working on that one, but I know that as soon as I hear this precious heartbeat and see that first picture, I will be head over heels for Baby #2, just like I am for Lorelai.

I scooped my girl up and headed back to the bedroom to tell Daddy that he better start truck shopping. He was elated! Jeremy has been my strength this week. He loves being a daddy, and he can't wait to get to love another baby! When I start stressing, he just smiles and tells me that God is sovereign and that "we got this!" Lorelai has a good daddy. And so does Baby #2:)

So here we go again! I'm heading to the doctor for the first time in the morning. According the the calendar, I'm already 8 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Baby #2 will be here sometime in mid-May! Lorelai will be a little more than 16 months old. Crazy, I know! But my God is in control. He has a plan for the child's life, and I get to be a part of that! I will never ever ever tell you that this child was an accident or mistake. Unexpected? Yes. A surprise? Yes. An accident? No way. My Father doesn't make mistakes...ever! I'm so thankful, and I'm praying for a healthy baby! And I might throw in a prayer or two for another well-behaved baby, too. :)